A Friend's Testimony of Healing from Striving, Etc.

We met our friend Lizzy in Haiti when we did a missions trip there. She is the daughter of the YWAM base director there and has since done a DTS and is now staffing in DTS'. She regularly emails us updates of what God is doing in and through her, we love her updates cause she not only talks about what God has her doing as far as ministry but she also shares what God's doing in her personally, she's courageous enough to be so transparent for the purpose of encouraging others in their journey. Her latest email was so impacting to me that I had to share her testimony with others!! Testimonies have the power of setting others free...I remember being healed of things just by hearing how God healed someone else who had the same thing. Revelations 12:11 explains the power of our testimonies. So here we go...

"One thing I had been struggling while being here (staffing at the DTS) is comparing myself with others and becoming frustrated and dissatisfied with where I was spiritually when I see other people walking in greater levels of freedom or anointing. After doing a supernatural school, it's easy to feel pressured to be "more supernatural" than others! 

One night, after an amazing prayer/worship time, I went into my room and with my spiritual eyes, I saw an angel standing there, waiting for me. He said, "Lay down on the bed. It's time for surgery." My first reaction was fear. Was I in trouble? Haha...I got ready for bed and laid down. I saw the Lord standing over me. He opened up my heart and pulled out this huge rock. It looked like hardened clay, and it read, "Coveting". He said, "You are coveting what others have instead of appreciating what I've given you. This is hardening your heart." I repented and afterwards He placed it beside me and said, "I have pulled it out of you, but it will always be right here. You can choose to pick it up and put it back." The power of choice...


Then He pulled out a small rock that read, "self-hatred". As he pulled it out, a piece of flesh in the shape of a hand was holding onto it, not wanting to let go. God said, "Your flesh wants this to stay, Lizzy, because it enjoys to whine about what it doesn't have." He yanked it out and set it beside me. When it was all done, I felt SO light. The comparing was gone, the dissatisfaction was gone. The striving was gone, FOR REAL. The verse, 'My yoke is easy and my burden is light," really made sense to me that night.  How much stuff do we keep in our hearts that harden us, steal our joy, and weigh us down with insecurity? God ALWAYS loves us where we are at. He never is saying, "Ah...I just wish she/he was farther along...I wish she/he was bolder..." He always wants us to go deeper and higher, but He never condemns us in the journey."  - Lizzy Snow


God, in His mercy, showed Lizzy what was lingering way down deep in her heart. She then walked through acknowledging it and repenting of it and she encountered the truth of what God said about her. I love how that verse she had always read finally made sense to her, the truth went from head knowledge to heart revelation!! After reading this email, I definitely prayed through this stuff myself, knowing I've made the choice of being jealous of others too. Wherever you are in your journey, I pray Holy Spirit will continue bringing healing and freedom to you, the beautiful work of sanctification!!!


So God's Love May Reign,


tami